What a Blessing

My 3 favorite people...Thomas, Sarah Kathryn and Luke



This past Sunday, Thomas and I attended our community group (Sunday school for adults) and we both left realizing even more what a blessing Sarah Kathryn has been to us. For the last 4 weeks our class has been studying the book of Job. This was the last class and our speaker wrapped it up by inviting Melanie Hannah to share her testimony with us. We have been bringing Sarah Kathryn to community group with us on Sunday's and she sits in her car seat and usually sleeps. So, this Sunday as we were listening to Mrs. Hannah give her testimony it was all that I could do to hold back my tears. She has such a powerful testimony and it only made me realize how much of a miracle our little girl is and how blessed we are to have such a healthy baby. Mrs. Hannah had a son and at the age of 6 mos was diagnosed with Leukemia. He struggled for 6 years and finally went home to be with the Lord. Her testimony still brings tears to my eyes and almost makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I could not even try to put myself in her shoes but I know that if we were faced with her situation it would be so hard to not feel cheated by the Lord. I sat there in my chair and just starred at Sarah Kathryn and realized how much my life would be destroyed if my little girl was taken from me. I never knew how much you could truly love someone but I have learned so fast that my love is so abundant for this little life. Mrs. Hannah shared how her little boy learned to know the Lord and that he knew that when he got to heaven that he would not hurt anymore. It was so hard to hear Melanie talk about how much her little boy hurt and that there was virtually nothing she could do to help him. I think that my biggest fear is not being able to help my child when she needs it most. After studying Job and hearing Melanie's testimony it has made me realize even more that all of us question the Lord and what he is doing in our lives and why he is doing it. However, no matter what path the Lord takes me down I have to realize that he has a plan for me and it is going to be the best plan that I can possibly have. I am so glad that we made it to community group this past week even if I left crying. I can only pray that Sarah Kathryn will know the Lord as Billy did (Melanie's son).